Ha, I just have to laugh every day How can I not wake up in complete joy every day even when I wake up with a sore back and neck every day it never gets me down. And every night I return home I return home in tears but they are tears of great gratitude and joy.
You see I was so enslaved you have no idea. I was tortured by my memories of my past and I was running for many years. You wonder how I have experienced so much well at the same time that I was running inside my soul my mind was still going and trying to find freedom I was seeking love I was looking for what I was told existed but never truly understood. I was so lost and tortured inside. Then my body finally broke and health took over. in that it stopped my mind from spinning and the fear of rejection began to break. I will never forget this day I know this was the day the chains broke and this was the day that I began to seek every inch of my soul and this was the day where I started to see the heavens open and I started to see the transformation in my heart. These were the words that ring through my ear every day.
God align her heavenly body with her physical body. It hit me like a ton of bricks What This is possible if this is possible then there is a possibility of healing. Maybe this is the path to healing. I began the journey I said fine I will do this. The thing is it was a messy thing to walk out and painfully gained and lost some friends but hey man the greatest is having all those that have ever impacted your heart and help you be who you are today because they took the time to mentor you well they all started to rise up and stand with me. And with this I felt like the strength inside of me began to rise I truly started to see what they saw all these years. The thing is it took hard work. It took me willing to go deep.
You know you are on the right track when you now hold a letter in your hand from the government of child protection services stating they made a mistake and now they are saying they are sorry. I was left in an unsafe situation and they know that and they are doing what they can to make up for it. I am watching my family rise up. I am watching reconciliation happening. I have now also been finding it funny as Papa has lined up slowly and surely every mentor that has impacted my life to see just what God has done. When they all see the change man I tell ya that does something to you your confidence rises and you stand even stronger you know you are not alone.
Meanwhile, when I go off every morning I now help others find healing how amazing is this I walked through pain to only in the end be able to relate to so many people. and be able to help them find healing through so many avenues. This brings joy in the morning and tears of thankfulness each night. Meanwhile, in each corner, I know who has my back. My life is becoming a living testimony and I have made some mistakes in it but hey how many of us are perfect on that is the beauty of each day. And a precious thing that Grace shows us.
So what is the change well it is this I have seen God always pointing down on me I knew I had Jesus by my side but this was this constant battle I am loved but you are no good. that was the constant battle and life was about proving myself I never spoke what I truly felt I was too busy saying what I thought others wanted to hear. As the fear was they will hurt you if you speak the truth. Not anymore something I was always taught finally pierced my heart. And I will say this again it was when I heard the words let your heavenly body line up with your physical body. boom I looked around the room and looked at my phone and I realized holy shit look who stands here with me. You are so loved you can do this.
From that moment I took a step over the line of my old mindset into a new mindset. I excepted grace but now I also had to battle through everything I was taught and find out what was truth for me. I am still figuring that out. But the cool thing is I am gaining wisdom and knowledge every day. While gaining more understanding in healing. There is so much to healing it is crazy. We need to look from inside out. and look at the environment and see what needs to change we need to add things that are missing into our body to a line it and make it healthy. We need to also focus on our thoughts each day, not an easy task when you have so many lies in your head from your past and you need to walk through them it is like walking through a wall sometimes. But trust me the other side is worth it. and trust me You for sure need to look at God he is right there with you and he holds the keys to the truth.
Let's face it we are all broken people we all have a story and now it is time to heal the story. Trust me we can all find this it is there for us to grab healing is real. I have found physical and emotional healing from the head to the heart.
You see I was so enslaved you have no idea. I was tortured by my memories of my past and I was running for many years. You wonder how I have experienced so much well at the same time that I was running inside my soul my mind was still going and trying to find freedom I was seeking love I was looking for what I was told existed but never truly understood. I was so lost and tortured inside. Then my body finally broke and health took over. in that it stopped my mind from spinning and the fear of rejection began to break. I will never forget this day I know this was the day the chains broke and this was the day that I began to seek every inch of my soul and this was the day where I started to see the heavens open and I started to see the transformation in my heart. These were the words that ring through my ear every day.
God align her heavenly body with her physical body. It hit me like a ton of bricks What This is possible if this is possible then there is a possibility of healing. Maybe this is the path to healing. I began the journey I said fine I will do this. The thing is it was a messy thing to walk out and painfully gained and lost some friends but hey man the greatest is having all those that have ever impacted your heart and help you be who you are today because they took the time to mentor you well they all started to rise up and stand with me. And with this I felt like the strength inside of me began to rise I truly started to see what they saw all these years. The thing is it took hard work. It took me willing to go deep.
You know you are on the right track when you now hold a letter in your hand from the government of child protection services stating they made a mistake and now they are saying they are sorry. I was left in an unsafe situation and they know that and they are doing what they can to make up for it. I am watching my family rise up. I am watching reconciliation happening. I have now also been finding it funny as Papa has lined up slowly and surely every mentor that has impacted my life to see just what God has done. When they all see the change man I tell ya that does something to you your confidence rises and you stand even stronger you know you are not alone.
Meanwhile, when I go off every morning I now help others find healing how amazing is this I walked through pain to only in the end be able to relate to so many people. and be able to help them find healing through so many avenues. This brings joy in the morning and tears of thankfulness each night. Meanwhile, in each corner, I know who has my back. My life is becoming a living testimony and I have made some mistakes in it but hey how many of us are perfect on that is the beauty of each day. And a precious thing that Grace shows us.
So what is the change well it is this I have seen God always pointing down on me I knew I had Jesus by my side but this was this constant battle I am loved but you are no good. that was the constant battle and life was about proving myself I never spoke what I truly felt I was too busy saying what I thought others wanted to hear. As the fear was they will hurt you if you speak the truth. Not anymore something I was always taught finally pierced my heart. And I will say this again it was when I heard the words let your heavenly body line up with your physical body. boom I looked around the room and looked at my phone and I realized holy shit look who stands here with me. You are so loved you can do this.
From that moment I took a step over the line of my old mindset into a new mindset. I excepted grace but now I also had to battle through everything I was taught and find out what was truth for me. I am still figuring that out. But the cool thing is I am gaining wisdom and knowledge every day. While gaining more understanding in healing. There is so much to healing it is crazy. We need to look from inside out. and look at the environment and see what needs to change we need to add things that are missing into our body to a line it and make it healthy. We need to also focus on our thoughts each day, not an easy task when you have so many lies in your head from your past and you need to walk through them it is like walking through a wall sometimes. But trust me the other side is worth it. and trust me You for sure need to look at God he is right there with you and he holds the keys to the truth.
Let's face it we are all broken people we all have a story and now it is time to heal the story. Trust me we can all find this it is there for us to grab healing is real. I have found physical and emotional healing from the head to the heart.
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