How to resurrect the broken hearted.

I have spent the last year on a Journey to speak to every mentor that has ever impacted me or meant something to me. You might ask why would you do this? You see what if I have lived a life that has been full of tournament and horror but I could never really truly face it. What if it was so painful that I allowed religion to try and paint the picture for me. I allowed peoples ideas of how I should face this pain be how I did this and all that did was give me years of pushing the pain down and covering it with pretending it never existed or was not as bad as it truly was.

You see for years I was a driven person to prove I was for real, that this was for real my life was real. I never needed to be driven because one thing the Great Divine has shown me is that the truth is written in the stars and hope has its ways of peaking itself around the corner. I also realized I needed to face the pain and face it once and for all this was part of my healing process.

I would get letters from our government apologizing for not keeping me safe one of my mentors read this letter along with this was a check I call a slap in the face but meh. The thing is What the Great Devine had me see is that the mentors in my life were not just my teachers but they were my witnesses and boy, oh boy are they, mighty people. They are the people you read about or want to read about they are the kind of people that blew my mind at the end of meeting my last mentor I had what I call a holy shit moment.

 I saw myself standing there looking around at the mighty men and women the Great Divine put in my life and that I get to say are my friends and are on my phone list. They are the ones that when I am in a corner they rise up. They are the ones that when I feel alone they show me I am not. They are the ones I do not get to see every day but I know they are in my corner.

They are the ones who taught me how to show Grace when all you want to do is punch someone in the face for there ignorance they are the ones who taught me grace when everything inside did not want to experience it because you felt unworthy. They are the ones who dragged me to a hospital when I did not want to go. They are the ones who know a phone call can take you out of a dark hole and get you back on your feet and being that joyful person everyone knows in the world.

They are the ones who can kick my ass, and give me a hug, and lift me up all in one sentence. They are the ones who know when I am hungry and give me a meal. They are the ones who know how to speak life to a body who keeps trying to give up. They are the ones Who when I stand on all the fruit in my life I can say Ya, you see the Great Devine ya, well you know look what he gave me I am a billionaire even though I live in a shack. lol, Our riches do not just come from money alone at the end of the day money does not go with you. But your memories do. And I can say my memories this year will be of all of you who truly stood with me and all of you I promise will see the fruits of your labor. I know our God and God delights when lives are transformed by love. This is one Greatful chick. I might be living with physical heart issues but my spiritual heart my soul it has found peace. I know we are no longer alone. And I understand love in a greater manner than I can ever imagine. I finally realized who are those of there word and those I can truly trust I finally feel completely safe. I feel like life just truly began for me. Now it is time to live it find healing for this heart and rise up yet again.

When Gratitude and Joy become your life and When The Devine is the centre.

It has been a while since I have blogged, So here I am writing I am thinking of this trip I just had. I have been on plenty of trips since I have last written.

 Each one came with a special gift. It seems this Journey of finding healing has now become the Journey of showing others Just what the heart of the Great Devine is. Whether it be in business or Joy. I get to watch Papa touch the hearts of all each day. This is a life I have greatly enjoyed. I have also gained this in this Journey a sense of who my real friends are. I have found a great place to land my feet and know where home is it is an amazing place to be.

 I have found peace in my heart understanding Gods love for us all and the Light that is shined all over. I have found a sense of complete peace in a way I may never be able to describe but those who travel with me will testify to finding this also. It is fun I just came back from a trip where a business partner had his eyes opened wide and was just rocked the entire trip. I watched everyone we were with find this understanding of Papas love also.
We were able to speak to the untouchable the ones no one thought was possible and were able to get complete attention. Love it when the words you need to speak are on your lips because all you have to do is listen to the Great divine.

It is funny in my home land I sit in the background when I travel it is a whole other world it is where I am welcomed and blessed and given great respect. I love the hearts of the people I get to meet the ones that bring us into their homes feed us to bless us and allow us to bless in return. Life has become these beautiful moments of paying it forward and helping others discover the beauty of the heart of God but also the heart of healing and finding health. It was funny today I have realized I have talked to so many wide ranges of people from billionaires to rock stars to actors to business people to doctors to pastors to the list goes on. I was shown I can fit into any environment now and this I thank Papa for.
 I look at my life at 41 and I say this I have actually lived an amazing life first half of my life was very hard but here I am today and life has become about Joy gratitude and appreciation of a life that I have to live. I love this life and it is with great Joy I get to walk it out. Took me time to adjust to this new life but I love it.

Being in a state of peace is a precious gift and I plan on keeping this. How do you find this? Well, this is how to go after it all do not hide from the hidden pain do not run from yourself there is no shame. The world has taught us to be and look a certain way. But this is just a cover this is not true happiness true happiness and peace comes when you discover you and who you are. When you open your eyes and allow the love that is surrounding you to actually pierce your heart. When you discover who you can trust and who your friends and family are and realizing how you are truly seen by the Great Divine. When you allow your heart to fully just allow God to take over. When you recognize you were apart of it all from the very begining. Life just becomes different.